I learned a lot inside a year
That handful of months
Another turn around the sun
Im still cold and burning up
Like a raisin in the sun
And im numb from smoking blunts
I don’t feel it when they hit me
Way my father used to beat me
I don’t think id really feel it
If a car swerved and hit me
What does God got against me
Ive been doing stupid sh** like
… and selling…
I even tried to rob a b**h that got
Raided by police
I’m just glad it wasn’t me
And that keep me up at night
But i’m used to losing sleep
Because i live inside a house
That’s full of water neck deep
So im always f**ing fighting
To keep my head above the water
If i could walk on top of oceans
I’d change the whole world and make it better for my mother
And get a message from my sister
That’s just f**ing fiction
She out there flirting with addiction
She don’t got no time to call me
Me you and our father
All hopeless alcoholics
If you get a chance to call me
Just remember that i love you
And i’ll always be your brother
For all the times that I didn’t want to live
Thank God I’m alive
I remember being young
I’d ask a lot of questions
Like why’s there so much hatred
And why they call me crazy
Mama said i fell from heaven
Smacked my head on the pavement
And that’s why they call me crazy
But that’s why i love you baby
And the day you stop fighting
That’s the day you turn crazy
I could never pay you back
But i could start with a Mercedes
When i blow up imma get you everything you wanted now
It’ll never be the same
Riding through htown
Got a chevy full of gas
Roll the windows down
Hope i find some peace of mind
Before the sun goes down