[Intro]
Yo
I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually
You will eventually
Some day
One day
[Refrain]
I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me
I hope you understand I love you more than life itself
And this is nothing but your daddy’s thoughts when he was feeling empty
[Verse 1]
And everything ain’t always what it seems like on the outside
I fought so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
I never wanted kids until I lived and went through hard times
And became a man that fell in love with someone that my heart finds
But you know how that sh** go
Young and reckless, different women part time
And I wasn’t ready for that life yet, I was in my dark prime
Me and your moms ain’t get along and she gave me a hard time
I really think that we just crossed paths at the wrong time
I wasn’t happy when she said she was pregnant
Probably the worst news of my life, that sh** was so depressing
I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it
I’m sorry that I said that sh**, yo I was tripping
[Refrain]
I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me
I’m sorry, yo
[Verse 2]
And I never wanted a broken home to raise you from a distance
Yeah I’ll admit it, I was scared of that type of commitment
Even hopes of a miscarriage, anything bad that could happen
That’d get me out of that situation, I was livid
I felt like sh** about my thoughts, that wasn’t me, I’m different
Plus I was dealing with some demons that I couldn’t live with
I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it
[Refrain]
I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me
Hope you don’t hate me, I was selfish, I hope you forgive me
Hope you forgive me
[Verse 3]
And I still remember your baby shower like it was yesterday
And to your mom it was special, me, just another day
I wish that you could see the pictures, all the fake phony smiling
Had to pretend that I was happy, deep down I was crying
Ma asked if I was okay, I turned around and looked away
I was drying all my tears, look back to say yeah
I was lying, goddamn, how the hell I get here?
This is it, this supposed to be my life
This ain’t how I pictured it
I never felt so damn alone, but it was more than often
One of the worst days of my life, and I ain’t even lying
We argued when we came home, I blame myself for all this
I think that I was holding a grudge ’cause she ain’t get an abortion
I’m sorry
Damn
[Refrain]
And I know you can’t understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me
I can’t believe I tried to hurt you, I hope you forgive me
Please, please
[Verse 4]
And everything ain’t always what it seems like on the outside
I fight so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
I sacrifice my life so you could live it
Peace, want to give you things my father couldn’t give to, me
I think I was raised wrong, and that’s just what it is to me
And if you ask him then his a** gon’ probably disagree
But whatever, whatever
And nothing’s ever made me cry as much as you, I swear
Your smile gives me motivation and some new ideas
My worst fear is always you not knowing who I am
‘Cause I been on the road dreamchasing for you out here
I was the first thing that you opened your eyes to
And the last one that you said goodnight
I went home and cried to
And I bawled my eyes out, and then watched you
Glad I got you, that’s a blatant fact
And every negative thing I said I swear I take it back
[Refrain]
I know you don’t understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you don’t hold this sh** against me
I hope you understand I love you more than I love myself
And this is nothing but your daddy’s thoughts when he was feeling empty
[Outro]
I was feeling empty
I been feeling empty
I put my emotions in this music when I’m feeling empty
I hope you forgive me
Please, please